God was healing all the secret things…

My husband and I have been married for 8 years. Since no relationship is perfect we have had our share of hard times. For years I have been hurt emotionally. Some wounds were there from prior rejections and verbal abuse growing up, others from marriage. I have always heard about getting healed emotionally and thought I had been. I thought that getting healed meant feeling better for a little while but eventually having to deal with it again.

When Apostle Bret came for the Winds of Change Conference in January he shared his Mountain Dew testimony. He talked about how we had a choice to make. We could basically do what we have to do to change or just live with our issues. So that night I made a choice. I decided to let God heal me. I mean really heal me.

When he called us up for prayer I was in so much pain. Physically my chest hurt, my head hurt and emotionally I was all torn apart. But I made the choice to stay up there until I got what God had for me. When Apostle Bret laid his hands on me he said that God was healing all the secret things, the things I told Him about in my secret place. Things I never told anyone about. My whole body went limp under the power of God and I fell to my knees. When I got up all the pain was gone!! All my physical pain was gone!

That night I had a chance to spend some alone time with my husband. Usually I would find an excuse not to because it hurt me to be close to him. I would use my kids as an excuse not to have to be close to him for too long. I just didn’t want to anymore. But on this Friday night I found myself wanting to be with him. I wanted to cuddle with him and allow him to be near me. I was so excited!! My emotional pain was gone!!

The next week I found myself in a very familiar position with my husband. One I had hoped wouldn’t happen again. I had told myself that if this situation came up again I would take our children and leave him. I already had it all planned out in my mind and heart. DeMarcus came to me and apologized for the situation, which is something he had never done before.

We have been in a cycle for the 8 years of our marriage that would result in his anger getting the better of him, and my wounded response would make everything worse. He would act remorseful but would never change. This time was different he came to me and apologized. That in and of itself amazed me. I found myself not knowing how to react. I wasn’t angry. I wasn’t hurt. I wasn’t scared. All those wounds were gone and I didn’t know what to do. So, I didn’t do anything.

I stayed quiet and started to pray. I just kept asking God what I was supposed to do. All night long I tossed and turned trying to hear an answer from God!! I kept thinking there has to be something I have to do. A decision I have to make. I cant just let this go. But without all the emotional pain I just didn’t know what to do. After talking to Pastor Tricia about times when she needed prayer and asked for it. I ask her and Pastor Tracy to pray for me because I felt I had a decision to make and didn’t know how to make it. Sunday morning on the way to IHOF I asked God again what to do about this situation. I heard the Holy Spirit clearly say ” Why does there have to be something for YOU to do?” This messed me up even more!

So during 2pm prayer I laid on my face and be in His presence. It was hard at first since DeMarcus was doing Harp and Bowl. But again I had a choice to make. I had to decide what was more important to me entering into the Glory of God or my situation. I choose His Glory. I had so much peace I didn’t know what to do!

A couple of days later we were having prayer and I wasn’t going to go because it meant leaving my husband home alone with the kids. But I needed to be there. So I decided to let go of the illusion of control and let God handle it. I went to prayer and had a good drink!!

When I got home my husband shared with me about how he had to make a choice that night. He could either call on Holy Spirit for help or react out of anger and frustration towards a yelling and screaming 5 year old. He told me that Holy Spirit had been dealing with him about his behavior. That night he choose to call on Holy Spirit for help. Holy Spirit highlighted the other 3 children who where playing and laughing. He focused all his energy on enjoying the 3 kids who where behaving.

I was overtaken with thankfulness to God. I began to share with him the healing that God did in me during the Winds of Change Conference. That night our relationship changed. I believe that the cycle we were in was broken and that I am a new person.

I am so grateful that Apostle Bret shared his testimony and teaching with us/me. I believe he was sent to IHOF for that Conference just for me! I praise God for such a deep healing that I didn’t even recognize myself. I praise Him for changing and restoring my marriage. Thank you so much Apostle Bret for being willing to let yourself been seen. (I mean your real self) Apostle Tina and yourself are the first leaders I have ever had or encountered that are so transparent and willing to share yourselves with your people. Thank you for your Mountain Dew!

Erica Latson, Cleveland, Tennessee